Once the medication kicked in, I found myself more controlled. The anxiety, depression and fits of rage abated somewhat.
The initial side effects were unpleasant, but not unexpected. After a while, I became used to them.
There was one though that I didn’t expect, nor could I develop tolerance.
When startled, even slightly, I would physically feel like I had been electrocuted.
Internally I would spasm, convulse, jerk and shake.
Externally, nothing apparent happened.
It was as though my brain perceived the body to be doing something it wasn’t actually doing.
That’s when I began to suspect something was awry.